So, Vacation soon. I kept thinking about this time of year last year. When I liked that kid and the last day of school he held my hand but then during the break went back out with his EX.
I keep thinking something like that will happen with the kid I like. Like when something happens with me and someone they end up going out with someone and lasting a really long time. I'm a good luck charm for everyone else but myself. Funny huh?
The boy I like isn't going so well. Our friendship isn't based on much at all. Just teasing. He does most of the teasing to be honest. He'll tell me to shut up or go away, playing around. And I just want to talk to him like a friend. Sometimes it's nice between him but most of it is stupid. Thats why I'm starting to not want to like him. I dont care for liking people but when I do it sucks a lot. And even though my friends think he likes me I don't see. And I want a friendship with him and all other nice things. He doesn't show any interest in me so why cant he just be my actual friend and stop teasing. It's not really cute. I don't expect us to become a thing ever. I just like him but want to be a friend.
Why cant I just be his friend that gives nice hugs.
Sorry I know I just talk about boys but I hardly ever and I just need to get it out. I'm done now.